And the questions continue.
They are questions that I am scared to hear or discover the answer. But they are questions that I need to ask myself and questions I need to ask others.
I constantly am questioning who I am and where will life take me. But at the end of the day I really have no control over what happens in my life. Sure I may decide whether I want to have a granola bar or popcorn...but can I decide whether I break an arm?
So these questions that linger inside me are transforming from little whirlwinds into big old twisters--but I only hope these questions will lead me to clarity.
A clear mind. A clear heart. A clear soul.
I know you may be wondering what on earth is she questioning? But these are the questions that I will keep inside me until I am able to answer confidently.
This then leads me to my next set of questions. These questions I will and can share.
Questions, such as--if I say this will my roommates think differently of me? Or think any less of me? Do I need to censor myself because of how someone will perceive me? Can I be myself?
Why do I worry about what people think anyway? At what age or point in my life will it not matter anymore?
Do any of you out there have the answer?
If you do, please let me know...
Gabeta LIFE itself is a big question mark!! We have NO real answers. Why are we here? Why was I born in 1945 and not during the time of say Julius Cesar? And on and on with questions and more questions.... Most likely there will never be any answers. If we had all the answers we will be in existing in the realm of the Divine and we are actually extremly insignificant beings in the great scheme of things. Therefore, attempt to search only the most basic and easy questions first and explore the possible answers one at a time and then move on. With respect to your other point, be yourself and don't be self-conscious of what others may think of you. That is a bit of insecurity. Be confident of who you are! You are a bright, beatiful, wonderful and hard working young lady. This is not just dad's opinion. It is the opinion of everyone who truly knows you. Finally be always honest to your convictions and beliefs with the inner acknowledgement that as life goes on you may change your point of view on many subjects as your understanding of things change from time to time. Let reason, logic and love take you by the hand in your journey through life.
ReplyDeleteI love how this was written right before our ichat date.
ReplyDeleteSi tu supieras chica....
Your dad is wise! Listen to him. Don't forget to ask God your questions. He is the one with the answers. Friends, family, mentors.. none of us have the answers unfortunately. Take advantage of your down times in the busy days (I know it's limited!) and ask not "why am I doing this?" but rather, "what are you teaching me?" "where are you leading me?" and ask for the GRACE to be able to listen, follow and learn. Bless you Gabi! Love you, MISS YOU!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree more with your Dad's post. I don't think he could have hit it more on key. Be yourself and be confident. You will see how everyone will love and accept you :) I promise!
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